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🎶 I’ve got halos made of summer ribbons made of spring 🎶

🎶 I’ve got halos made of summer ribbons made of spring 🎶

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I have a slight obsession with farms. Upstate NY you’re so good to me.

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doublewowee:

does anybody else legitimately worry about how they’re going to share a bed with their partner when they’re older? like buddy i need all the blankets to make a burrito and then i need to throw them off of me dramatically in the middle of the night and lie spread-eagled across the entire bed how is this going to work

#realfacts

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June302014

The Human Condition

You ever just stop and think about why we do anything ever? Why as humans we breathe thru our nose, why do we lie to each other, why do we bleed when punctured? I mean couldn’t an almighty Creator devise a different plan so when the knife slips slicing onions we don’t gush red everywhere (technically blue before air if you’re really really scientific)? I mean why are we ‘stuck’ with this human condition? Why can’t we all be oober awesome twenty-four hours a day one hundred percent of the time? Well…if you’re like me you ask a lot of questions in your head rather than aloud because you don’t want people to know just how fast your thoughts are going. I’ll let you guys in for a minute so I can share what’s been on my mind recently which is……love.


Oh don’t stop reading now, isn’t this expected? Isn’t this what I’m supposed to be thinking about as a young woman in her early 20s? Aren’t I supposed to spend hours upon untold hours daydreaming about love & it’s warmth & protection & how everything will be a gazillion times better when I have? And I don’t mean society’s construct which most definitely contributes to my over arching complex views on this matter but instead rather I want to talk about is what is left in the wake of a love lost & how that can influence this ever pressing issue.


Love is many things to different people for sure I cannot doubt that. People believe it changes and morphs over time because we exist in our human condition. We all change whether we admit to it or not. No one is born & dies the same. It’s almost impossible in western culture to live a life untouched. Love for me when I was five years old was a themed birthday cake ‘The Lion King’ & I don’t even like cake. Love when I was eleven years old came in the form of an unlikely ally. My elementary school nurse who let me spend an hour here or there every 28 days when I was in abnormal amounts of pain laying on a cot when I really wanted to be outside playing kickball with my friends. Love when I was fourteen years old came in the form of seeing my name on a list titled “Varsity Cheer” in the main hallway of my high school. I mean you get the picture right?

Love, in our eyes as humans, in our human condition varies. It is as if a lake untouched appears like glass until a rock thrown in makes a ripple, until an ecosystem underneath ruffles a small fish, until a frog on the banks jumps in, until a construction company comes & dredges up the whole entire thing. I’ve learned a few things in the hoircrux (JK Rowling is ashamed of me I don’t know how to spell that word BUT nevertheless) of love & our human condition. Three things I’ll briefly mention before my mind flies off to the next thought. One, love is a game changer. Two, love is a battle. And lastly, love brings to light all of the frailties of our human condition.


Love is a game changer. If you think you will meet love and then continue on with your life as you know it, ha zzdon’t be crazy. I mean boy do you have an awakening coming for your face to slap you & wake you up! Jesus says in Luke 12 I’ve come to start a fire…I’ve come to change everything, turn everything right side up—…do you think I came to smooth things over & make everything nice? Not so. (The MSG). This is what I’ve known love to do. It always has in mind a different way of living than you in your human condition have previously known . It creates a decision like no other matter can. You decide if you want to remain the way you are or if your life, your game has been changed. It throws a wrench in the middle of it all, a perfectly sized ‘life wrench’ that can be painful sometimes & other times can be awesome. When we meet love we meet many decisions.


Love is a battle. If you think for a second you’ll come out unscathed you’re in for an adventure. It’s a game changer that brings you to a cliff & like a bunch of life events dressed as the men in the film 300 await you. You fight and you fight hard. This is no laughing matter I mean all those dudes died & they had (spray painted)
abs. I don’t even have the fake kind…but that’s besides the point. We know Psalm 27:1 says The Lord is the defense of my life; whom shall I dread? (NASB). In Ecc 9:11 it says “I again saw under the sun that the race is not to the swift and the battle is not to the warriors, and neither is bread to the wise nor wealth to the discerning nor favor to men of ability; for time and chance overtake them all.” (NASB) This battle isn’t ours, the love battle never was but belongs to The Lord. This is why so many of us come out with battle wounds from fighting with or fighting against love. We can all do ourselves & the rest of the universe a favor & probably just stop. In Exodus 15 verse 3 it says “The LORD is a warrior; The LORD is His name.” (NASB).

One of the pastors at my church said this statement & it has stuck with me ever since “we fight from a place of victory not FOR victory”. We got it, love is a battle but don’t get caught on the field as if you’re doing all the hard work & sitting,hoping,wishing there is a great outcome. Because when the game is changed & love enters your life you can decide if you’ll remain on the battle field with its clashing of not just ideals but also hearts. You can decide if you’ll keep fighting in your own strength or if you’ll fight from a place of victory.
You ever been in a situation (most likely with another female)who is in mid conversation with you about their genuine disgust with someone else & then said person who is disgusting walks over & the female & gross human chat it up as if they’ve been bffs for 42 years? No? Just me? That’s cool, I guess no one else reading this blog ever went to college. But hear what I’m saying…typing..texting whatever you ever wonder what about our human condition makes this possible? Well I do & I’ll let ya know it’s because we all have our human condition to live our lives thru.

The human condition, I sometimes like to call the sin condition is ever displaying our frailties. It exposes us & especially when you add the intersection of love. Love is a movement, a force, a living breathing entity and when your human condition & love collide you begin to see just how small you actually are. It’s as if the universe is punk’ing you (thank you Ashton Kutcher) & you walk out of an argument and you think back did I have to be that mean? Or you turn off you smart phone & think why is that person so cruel? It’s in all of is dude, no one is exempt. Some people refuse to acknowledge their condition, some deny it exists bc if we just “think we can do better” we miraculously do & then we find our solutions in our own positivity (yea…ok still pending on this way of thought so far nothing has come of my great positive thoughts but instead many good & awful things have come of my actions…prov 20:11 msg) others still wander around not ever truly coming to any conclusions on the matter & that’s one way to live I suppose.

Ephesians 5:1-2 says this ” watch what God does, and then you do it, like children who learn proper behavior from their parents. Mostly what God does is love you. Keep company with Him and learn a life of love. Observe how Christ loved us. His love was not various but extravagant. He didn’t love in order to get something from us but to give everything of Himself to us. Love like that” (The MSG). Now Proverbs 20:6 basically asks the same question I asked after reading this version of Ephesians 5…where on earth can you find that?! Who can do that? Uhm, properly?? None of us. This is what love revealed to me & in me. It is our human condition to fall short of everything love requires of us. But that isn’t horrible news, that is simply the truth. When you can come to a place that brings you from wonder to the game changer decision maker battle field of your own short comings that’s when life truly gets explosive. Understanding is the key that unlocks many things. That’s when you can make the decisions that bring you closer to the one source of perfect Love we have this side of heaven & most importantly on the other side of heaven in eternity. “Just as water mirrors your face so your face mirrors your heart” Prov 27:19(The MSG). Our hearts can change over time thankfully because of perfect Love that never changes, that is given to us, shown to us & revealed to us in the form of God, the Son, & the Holy Spirit.

…I wonder about a lot of things from day to day. Love is one of them. Love knocks at my door every morning when I wake up & every night before I fall asleep. The only difference I have now is an understanding that I cannot stay the same, I’ve won The battle because of Jesus, & that I’m grateful of my human condition although it leaves me less like the super hero I sometimes wish or believe myself to be.

#fromthistime
Xo.

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immersings:

I grow super attached to people so please give me a 60 day warning before I stop existing to you.

Facts.

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June282014
“You see it is love that shatters me and also love that will build me.”
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